Rewind: August 2023

I breathed a sigh of relief this month because I finally got to move house. Ever since I made the decision and broke my lease over a quarter ago, I had been on tenterhooks, figuring out the entire thing and I feel a weight off my shoulders for it. August has still been a stress on my career but I’m trying to take that in stride. Over-all, I feel a new chapter is open with my new place and I’m excited for what’s next. 

Loving

I’ve waxed poetic about this move but I really am feeling pretty good about this. Apart from the monetary savings (and yes you can say that I’m commuting longer, but I m reading on those anyway), it’s so nice to be a lot closer to Theo. Being a couple bus stops away from them means I can visit with much shorter lead times. And yes, sure most of it is just holding him for 15 minutes while Pamy takes a shower, I’ll take it. 

Then there’s the flashbacks to why I loved living with Mark and Barb so much to begin with. I feel so cared for. This husband and wife duo is so chill and amazing and just generally take care of me. Whether it’s installing night lights in the hallway so it turns on when I want to go to the bathroom the middle of the night or if it’s cooking breakfast on Sunday mornings and including me in that. I’m excited for this new chapter. 

Working On

Getting into the groove of my new routines. Because I do live further now, I need to readjust the commute times and that throws everything else into disarray. Luckily, I’m already going to the office 3x a week so our new RTO mandate isn’t affecting me too much, but it is making me rejig the days I do weights versus the days that I run since that will now have to change. 

I also need to figure out when I can do laundry and when I can do meal prep! And now that I don’t own the entire fridge (not that I ever filled it up), I also need to figure out when I can use the kitchen (most days) and when I can hang up my clothes (most days) so it’s really not much of a struggle but an adjustment still! I think the biggest adjustment is closing the door when I use the bathroom, which sounds bananas but living alone, never had to worry about that. 

Feeling

Though things have generally been ok, I attribute a lot of it to the support system I have lifting me up and keeping me off the edge. I have family on speed dial and friends who I can rely on and honestly I can’t complain. They have been my source of refuge and I’ve had many a breakdown this month, and so i’m so incredibly grateful that I have them.

And as I was speaking to a friend about loss and rejection, i realise that I can tackle so much of it because of the support system of loved ones that literally prop me up. So thank you to everyone that’s checked in and said hello and generally listened to me freak out and spiral and was patient with me as I navigated adulthood — it’s not easy but it really does get better with this support. Thank you