I thought that if i let anyone in, they’d find out what was broken about me. And then not only would they know, i’d know too.
— Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times
What Are We?

What Are We?

Ever since lockdown, I’ve gotten into the habit of saving songs I listen to in these periods of time. This is on top of my monthly favorites — which i’ll be honest, has been hard to keep up with given my lack of concentration and general laziness.

With Circuit Break (I guess this was Phase 1) and Phase 2 out of the way, the Phase 3 playlist has been in full swing and possibly the happiest vibes among the three of them, so far. I guess there is a correlation to my general mood. Still, I thought I’d share some of the songs I’ve been listening to on-repeat.

Mean It by Lauv and LANY — I’m never really one to cop to guilty pleasures because I have no guilt with any of my music but I have to say that both Lauv and LANY have fallen close to this (i don’t know why! It doesn’t make sense). And so to overcompensate for my guilt, I’m listing this as one of my most repeated songs for the past couple of months. Both artists have been on multiple other lists of mine and together, they produced an incredible LSS-y song! As the perpetual ‘waiting-in-vain’ girl, this struck me: “But you text me when you feel like when it feels right to you; But I'm all, I'm all in, I'm fallin' faster” you’ll sense a pattern here, I know.

What Are We by Virginia To Vegas — possibly the song I’ve had on repeat the most and it doesn’t hurt that it’s number one on the playlist is this ultra catchy song that I think i discovered via a spotify discover weekly playlist. Coming from unrequited everything (story of my life), lyrics like: “I don't wanna lie, And I don't wanna hide, That I'm starting to like you, But if you feeling it to Baby, tell me, What are we?” how can I not relate?

Side Effects by Carlie Hanson — for more delusional lyrics (my favorite kind), it had me with the opening bars of “Was the one who wanted no strings, Now I'm tying us together; Tell myself I wouldn't feel things, If I labeled us whatever” oh how many times have I found myself in this situation? Too many and yet, I’m back every single time. Also, bonus for being a fun bop!

On the Low by Tove Styrke — This was a late addition but I’m kind of in love with it because it’s a really great bop to dance to (yes, dancing alone in my kitchen counts, because let’s be real, when will be allowed to dance in a room with other people that don’t add up to 8? I don’t know?) Also, with such hopeful lyrics like “Cause you and me, we're too damn good to let it be, and I don't wanna keep it on the low”, how can I not want this to manifest?

Watching You Walk Away by Stephen Puth — I have no clue if this guy is related to Charlie Puth but just like his Puth namesake, this song is catchy and fun. “Are you with somebody else? I don't know what you do alone; Try to play it down but it gets harder to pretend, That I don't care if I see you again” and really, how can one not wonder? I always do but this song puts the words into a nice fun vibe even if it’s really just anxiety.

State of Emotion by Ella Vos — Winding down the pop-y faves comes a slightly moody vibe and I liked one song by Ella Vos before but seeing the rest of her album makes me wish I listened to more of her discography. I get Lorde vibes from her and I guess i just miss Lorde. Excited to have more from her.

What a Difference A Year Makes

What a Difference A Year Makes

Currently: February 2021

Currently: February 2021