Currently: August 2020
What a month August has been. Back in March, when COVID-19 was in its infancy and we started working from home, my team started a guessing game of when we’d be able to travel again (for work). Given teammates in Malaysia and some of us in Singapore, and for a team that travels for work often enough in the region, we thought it’d be a good benchmark for normalcy to return.
Back in March, I guessed by the end of August, things would be ok. Boy was I wrong. Not that things aren’t ok. In fact, I’ve grown to enjoy the work from home situation so much that I don’t think I’d be comfortable if you told me I had to go back to the office next month. And so, it just shows how much things can change in the span of a couple of months.
This gives me hope that as I wallow in self-pity (these past couple of days) and trudge through the PMS that won’t seem to end, that it’ll pass, too.
Loving
My friend Lee-Ann (possibly my longest friend, we’ve known each other since we were 4 years old) is a dermatologist and has been providing me the best skin care advise and I am finding the routine she’s given me to be really great anchors to the start and end of my day. I am a creature of habit and person who likes routine so it’s a shock I haven’t had one of these earlier in life. Well, I guess it’s not too late to start.
I’ve said it before and I’ll keep saying it over and over, I feel so incredibly grateful to be living in Singapore right now because they are handling COVID-19 so well. Is it perfect? Probably not, but who is doing it perfectly anyway? When I talk to family and friends in Manila, it’s always with a tinge of worry (more than a tinge, let’s be real) and so having this feeling of competency and safety is such a weight off one’s shoulders. I will never stop being grateful.
I got a rug for the house! This feels very adult and very unlike me but if you have a friend that owns a rug store, you’re basically just drooling after all the rugs all the time and so I bit the bullet and did a rug trial with her and then made a video of the experience. I’m still not fond of seeing myself of camera (the irony of my college course!) but anything for a friend. Plus, I have a really pretty rug now.
Working On
I bit the bullet and finally subscribed to ZWIFT. Given my erratic outdoor cycling schedule (and the fact that I am both scared when I go out and somehow crash each time and can’t go out with my colleagues cause they’re all on Team freaking A), I am giving this indoor cycling thing a go and to be honest, I’m kind of loving it? Yes, I sweat so much more because I am cycling in place without the wind in my armpits, but it’s been such a joy to not worry I’m going to crash or get run over by a bus. Yes, I am lame like this but you have to make the most of the situation!
I’ve been going through a funk these last couple of days of the month. Feeling a lot of Self-pity and just over-all lack of drive. But as I look back on the month (thanks to this entry), I realize that I have SO MUCH to be grateful for in the grand scheme of things. Yes, rejection and ghosting still suck and still exist and knowing that someone just isn’t that into you will be a recurring theme of my life, I know that I’ll be ok and I just need to remember that more and focus on the negativity less.
Anticipating
I’m starting to burn vacation days for real just because we’re entering quarter 4 soon without a real end-date to this no-travel situation so with my boss’s blessing, we’re all just taking turns taking days off even if we’re not going anywhere. It’s not the best prospect but still grateful we even are able to do this and so September will have me taking a couple days off. Hopefully, I can truly disconnect and recharge and come back with a little less stress in this lovely climate.
