Rewind: July 2023

Well they can’t lay off more people the next month right? Coming from the low that June ended with, July gave me some stress (when am I not?) but also some hope for the future! I’m trying my best to keep my head above water and literally take things one task at a time, so I don’t drown. I’m glad I have the best loved ones to keep me sane along the way

Loving

Coming from a large family, it’s always going to be difficult to get everyone together, but once in a while, we manage to. And even if it wasn’t complete complete, it was as good as it got and July was the month when I saw most of my siblings in one place with my parents and my aunt and my new nephew and it was brilliant.

I also happened to see friends! I haven’t seen my kinder/high school friends in a while and because they are both dermatologists, it was really nice that they cuold come over to Singapore for a medical conference! We’re that age! The age wherein you’re going to medical conferences and talking about your friends kids!

Working On

Though things are supposed to be “status quo” for the next three months post-layoffs, there’s still a lot of ramping up to do as we transition to the new organization. And though it’s exciting that I’m going to be able to learn new things (yay!), I’m just cognisant of the fact that I lost my boss and my report and we’re going to get more work. So how to balance the workload, I’m unsure, but I’ m going to try.

Then there’s giving difficult feedback which I’ve never been great at, but things have come up at work that have affected multiple folks in the team and I feel this immense responsibility to just do the right thing and have the difficult conversations. It’s not my style — i’d honestly rather bury my head in the sand, but it doesn’t feel right to do so, and so here I am having those hard talks.

Feeling

I didn’t get to write about it in full yet, but Suren and I caught the Spurs when they were doing the pre-season tour in Singapore and it was electric. Sure, they were playing agains the Lion City Sailors (cause Roma backed out last minute), but it was fun to see fun football again. Our new manager looks interesting and I’ll say more about it next time.

I’m also feeling quite nostalgic about moving. As I do viewings for all the potential future tenants, I’m getting this choke in my throat, because I truly do love this place but it’s time to go (I’d rather i walk away over being forced to go because I can’t afford rent next year), and so I’m feeling all the feels of this first place that I could call my own and know it’ll be better.