Rewind: April 2023
Well, this month was pretty stressful. I’m not going to lie. I don’t think I’ve felt this anxious in a while and that’s saying something because I am an anxious person all the freaking time. Still, I’m going to try and look back on the good times, because there were some! And what is life if not remembering the positive things? Sure, let’s go.
Loving
Meeting old friends and keeping up tradition is always a good thing. I’ve been going to Rugby 7s every year for a couple years now and usually with this lovely group of folks. Though we’re down a couple participants, it was still as fun as always seeing this incredibly fast-paced an often violent game but all in good fun.
It was also nice to see old flatmates and old friends over Nandos (this time they had liver!). Even if we don’t see each other often, this supposedly quarterly meet-up is really a nice touchpoint to catch-up. Sometimes, keeping up old traditions is just what I need.
Working On
With all the work travel that happened, I definitely felt like my usual routines were blown out of the water. Whether it’s exercising or cleaning the house or just having quiet time to myself. And I didn’t realise how much I needed this to ground me.
So it was good that I got a run in (a 5.6km one at that with my best time ever! — still slow but not bad!) and was incredibly impressed by how quickly Taylor finished it. I hadn’t even started running and he was already finishing up (he’s also top runner at his company and 50th in Singapore out of 8,000+ runners — let me feel proud and brag).
I also got a new knitting project in and I finally finished this scarf and hat combo! My first hat! Sure, I’ll need a cold place to wear this to, but it’s a pretty fun accomplishment to make a hat!
Feeling
As mentioned, I have had my worst bouts of anxiety this month and I’m so grateful I have the most amazing support system of loved ones who listen to me go in circles but keep me from spiralling.
I really hope things pan out for the better for me an I hope it happens soon. I don’t think I can deal with this anxiety much more.
