Farewell to Friends

This week was a tough one. We lost some amazing folks due to the recent layoffs at my company, and it's left me feeling a bit lost. With all the tech layoffs happening, uncertainty seems to be the theme of the day. And this was just the confirmation of that.

I won’t forget that day in the office when the news leaked in the afternoon and folks were basically in a catatonic state that afternoon. How could anyone blame them? It was hard to work and still think things would be ok. Wishing my team a good night and saying “see you tomorrow” felt hollow.

The last layoff we had back in COVID days felt less close to home, because my team was not affected. But as a first time manager who wasn’t aware that my own team was affected, this hit home and it’s still quite hard to believe. It's hard to wrap my head around this sudden change.

I’m still trying to figure out how to move forward. I’m trying to stay positive and remember that I’m in this together with my other team mates who are experiencing survivors guilt. I literally have no answers but what to do anyway.

As I say goodbye to our colleagues and literally have nothing figured out, but we'll learn, I’m trying to be less worried about the uncertainty and just be here for my friends. I don’t have much to say but I just wanted to write this down.