Risky Business

I wouldn’t call myself a risk-taker. I make safe investments, I take the happy path, and I’m just not very good at living outside the comfort zone. It’s not necessarily the worst thing, but for some reason, I know that I would like to edge my way out of it in different aspects of my life.

I think it’s also related to my inability to express my needs properly. Going to coaching has gotten me to realize and confront this part of myself more and more. Though I’m always oriented towards others, when faced with my own desires and wants (and some needs), it’s so hard for me to actually figure this out.

But I’m glad that I’ve got people in my life (and the means to attend therapy) to help me along the way. Asking me questions, not giving up on me and just being incredibly patient as I try to figure things out by myself. I always thought I had a great self-awareness but I know this is also a lifelong journey.

This past year, the pandemic has continued to rage on and I’m still trying to make the most of the situation. And I’m glad that I’ve found ways to cope by myself, and with others. I’m so grateful for this support I’ve had along the way, from relationships old and new.

I’m learning that though I do relish my alone time soaking up as much media as I can, other people are also important! I can reach out first! I don’t have to wait around. And today, I finalized my annual list of holiday cards and it’s such a great reminder of the amazing support system that’s propped me up.

New names on the list, new addresses, lots of memories. And though we’re not quite at the end of the year yet, as 2021 wraps up, I can’t help but look back at the risks I’ve taken this year and the challenges I’ve been through and will continue to experience. So i guess, if you’re reading this, thank you.

Thank you for supporting me and reaching out and saying hi and listening to my inane rants about the silliness I’m going through and the precarious situations I get myself in to no matter how risk-averse I think I am. Here’s to more happy surprises and risks that pay off along the way. Thank you.