New blog, new age, old habits. Every year on the eve of my birthday, I would record a voice post over on my LiveJournal. And looking back, I've been doing these "voice posts" since I turned 20. That's a little sobering to look back on and to realise how long I've been attempting to document my life online. I rarely do look back on it, but when I do, I cringe and get nostalgic in equal measures.
30 was another crazy year. Every year, I think: "this has been the craziest year yet" and yet every year, it just seems to top itself with the amount of things that happen and don't happen for me. In my never-ending quest of self-discovery, my 30th year made things a little more concrete in my head and in my heart about what I wanted and didn't want. I also felt like I could rest a little bit after running after an arbitrary deadline for my life to start; when clearly life has been going on for almost 31 years now.
In hindsight, I never quite remember what it is I wish for every year when I blow out my candles (and whether it comes true or not), but right now, when I think about what it is I wish for, I'll cross my fingers and hope for the best. And though it may not happen for me, I shall continue to wish for this or something better than this.
Thanks to everyone who's supported me and listened to me and laughed and learned and lived with me on my 30th year. I feel so blessed to have the most amazing family and friends and support system as I navigate my 30s. And so with that, hello, 31.